Unbearable Suffering: My Battle Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a dreary Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a sudden pain bloomed behind my one eye. It was followed by quick jolts, like electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the pain subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches returned repeatedly that fall, and again in spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically start with severe pain around a single eye that persists up to three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks usually start with abrupt, severe agony around a single eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; others have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. Another found a significant percentage of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the figure fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a long-term sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to many causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken episodes. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Still, the inability to plan life around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The first description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the subject. They attributed the disease to an evil entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical medical records suggest unusual remedies for what some experts would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by international medical societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel which delivers blood to the head. Prominent experts in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such progress, identification remains slow. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple surgeries before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary head pain conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A thorough patient history is essential: on which side do signs occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain features such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack eased.

Official guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of some people.

But consultant specialists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle determines the treatment.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are managed with abortive therapy alone. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the side of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.

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Aaron Roberts
Aaron Roberts

A seasoned journalist and political analyst based in London, focusing on UK-European relations and social policy trends.